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| yea you know i realized today that my life could be a lot worse which makes e feel a little batter about everything thats going on now but i still wish that my life were better and that i wasnt upset but ohh well i just have to deal with what i have and do the best i can. soo im sorry if anyone got pissed cuz they were like jt ur life doesnt suck at all it seems perfectly fine to me but to me i have issues and i hate it but anyways i apologize for my hour long rant from last night well actually this morning but who fucking cares. | | |
| so here i am again in which im gonna sit here and type about things that have gone on in my life for no particular reason considering i know that only 2 people maybe 1 or 2 more read this and thats it but whatever i really dont give a fuck.for some reason even though i only do this like 2 maybe 3 times a year anymore i like to do this to just sit down and think about whats been going on in my life and just write i mean type about it. so i mean i guess my life's alright. i really hate being home because my family really pisses me off and what not but whatever. so for those of you who dont know my dad is going to iraq...again. it really sucks hes training right now but he'll be home for christmas which i guess is a good thing, im really glad that i get to see him but yet at the same time i dont want to. im an extremely sensitive person i know gay right but i dont care what anyone thinks thats one thing ive learned throughout my life soo far is who fucking cares what you do or what you look like or whatever. anyways so yea when my dad left for training, ust for training i bawled my eyes out even knowing the fact that he was just training and the chance that anything would happen to him was slim to none but i wasnt going to see him for a few months even though even if he hadnt left i would have seen him like a maximum of 10 times this semester anyway cuz i dont wanna come home i like staying at school and when im home go to my girlfriends...home pisses me off and just depresses me. ive had a terrible week so far because this is the longest ive been at home with absolutely nothing to do in a while. over the summer i was worrking at kwood so i was rarely home because when i was done with work for the evening i would take my gf home talk to her for an hour +...leave and then talk to her on the phone until i fel asleep that night and then woud wake up and go to work and do it all over again and i was happy with that and when i would come home on the weekends during school i was hanging out with my friends or went to my girlfriends for the day. this break i expected to come home to a job at mcdonalds so i would have something to do but they fucked it up bug time and im still not there they deleted me from the system and i have to wait for them to put me back into it because they dont have the right paperwork.so everyday this break has been staying up til practically 6 in the morning cuz i cant fall asleep and then wake up at fucking 2 in the afternoon in which i have no time to get anything done. also throughout school this semester i joined a fraternity IBK. its a good time but the pledge process was a bitch. i was the brotherhood's bitch for like 77 days. i had to clean the house after parties take out the trash the works all while getting drunk off my ass while trying to balance school, marching band as well as a much loved relationship. i feel like i didnt do a very god job...yes i got into the fraterity wonderful but at the same time i failed 2 classes no like a c or d fail a f fail. that has never happened to me ever. band was fine considering the frat is a band fraternity, but my relationship was almost killed. courtney was not a fan at all ahe still isnt and probably never will be but thats fine cuz my relationship with her is perfect nowso i def have no room to complain. i can definatley say that ive never been happier with another person. have you ever met someone who was just perfect for you? you both enjoyed the exact same things and had many of the exact same beliefs? i never did nor did i think it was even possible until i met this girl. everything with her and i clicks and i absolutely love that soooo much. another great thing is the fact that she is attractive...ive had soo many people tell me that she is like a thousand times better looking then my last girlfriend who was just a stupid bitch and i realize that cannot think of one good thing that came out of that relationship i feel like i think about her and nothing but bad thoughts to my mind and that really sucks that i spent 3 years with someone and the only memories i have from that realtionship are sad and depressing or just piss me off and make me think are you fucking serious? it juat makes me want to kick myself in the ass for even getting back together with her in the first place but thats all in the past and no one cares about it anymore...right now i just cant wait for this weekend to begin...the shirers house tonight until who knows how late. football on friday and hope to get together with choma and evan and eugene and whoever else that night which would be awesome and then on sunday spend the day with my wonderful girlfriend who i know i already spend a lot of time with but its just not enough. i know what some people think and its like you're too young to be in such a serious relationship but i say whatever to that cuz i really feel like this girl is it the one who i just might be with forever and that makes me extremely happy and is one of the only things that makes me happy anymore cuz i definately feel like my life blows...anyways kudos if you read this whole thing and f you skipped whatev i really dont care cuz i'll never know but anyways thanks for reading and im glad i can let some people know about my life. thanks again | | |
| So here i am back to discuss the wonders of a part of the world....my life. well i guess it's not really a part of the world cuz it's not like a real mountain or anything, now thats a part of the world but my life takes place in the world so however you want to interpret it....i really dont care, this about my life. wow i really havent been here in a while...i think the last thing i did on xanga was read my past entries which took me a whole 10 minutes cuz i have like 11 entries that pertain to the last 2 years or so.well what does that matter cuz im back and ready to write the next installment of my life. Since my last entry i have gone through a year of college, met a lot of new people, experienced my first year of college marching band, past my first year of college, lost a girlfriend and then got another one, and started another thrilling year in kiddieland. thats generally everything that has happened. i dont feel like explaining anything more then my new gf.she is amazing. we have so much in common and i love that.i feel that we really care about each other and i couldnt ask for anything more then that. shes cute, pretty, funny and just makes me sooo happy. and i work with her and thats how i met her...so i see her sll the time which is wonderful...but i think that thats all i can write now...im falling asleep...bye everyone who reads this...3 people | | |
| hey, it's been a while and i 've gone on the band trip, i went back to school and i now have a girlfriend, but i'm gonna talk about those in the order that i mentioned. The band trip, i had a blast, as much drama that happened and as many people who said that the trip sucked, i loved it and i would most definatly have to say that it was my favorite trip which is good cuz as you all know, it is my senior year. Pigeon Forge was pretty boring just cuz it was like red-neck store central. John Deere, leather shops, the works. The town of gatlinberg was pretty fun though. There was a lot to do, a lot more then in pigeon forge, but still not my types of stores. A lot of arcades, and just random shops. I do have to say that i found the best music store that i ever been too. It had practically every cd in my case, some of which i thought were so undereground that i thought i would never find a real copy of. The adjudication was good even though the first time we ran through our opener, the entire thing feel apart, but we figured it all out. Afterwards i found out from ms. lorey that i was the only person in the band that was complimented by name which was something i was prety proud of, being complimented by a college music teacher. Dollywood was fun, making one of the worst decisions of my life with, choma, eugene, jen, justin, and nick by riding the raging rapids ride on a day barely over 50 degrees. i was the smart one and got off after 4 times, others going to 23. i got off and got to ride everything i wanted including the new ride which wasn't supposed to open for another week. The wooden coaster there is most defiantley on my top 10 list of wooden roller coasters. My only problem with any of the roller coasters was that they were way too short. 3 of the 4 were phenomenol but yet way too short, but i had fun. I don't think my days are in order cuz the day before dollywood we went into the smokey mountains and had a good time, it was really pretty. overall the trip was full of mischeif at the hotel in which we duct taped my sister to a chair and tried to leave her in the lobby.shopping, and just playing video games. but i had a really good time. Nothing major about school, just went back and got a b in calc and physics and a 97 in german, and the rest were a's. i was proud of that.well the momen i'm sure everyone has been waiting for, well on the trip, practically the entire trip which i am far complaining, i hung out with jen. we had a lot of fun together. on the bus ride home, we just mutually decided to get back together. I really happy about that the decision and i have nothing against it. Now i know some of you are thinking but wait you told me that you would never get back together with her, well i guess i lied, and i'm sorry. at the time when i told anyone that, i wasn't on very good terms with her, or i never ever thought at all that i would like her again. Others may say well, what about what she did to you before with greg? well we talked about it and she realized that she was very unhappy with him and that she felt terrible about the whole thing. not only that, but we have so much more in common now then we ever have or ive ever had with another person. All of the problems that we used to have, it seems time has gotten rid of those habits or we've grown to except them. No matter how things people could come up about my relationship with her before and how terrible it was, i'm really happy right now, and if you care about me that should be all that matters. So since my last entry, that's basically what has gone on, and i'm prety happy with everything that has happened. | | |
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